“ I will sing praise for all you have done for me.
Fill my heart as I hunger for you-put my mind with your wisdom and truth.
Father, make me a river. Come living water, flow through me. You are, the one I thirst for; Come living water, flow through me!
You are, the one I thirst for; Come living water flow through me!
Guide every step I take
Fill every word I speak
Touch the world with my hands, they are yours.
Let my love show the lost you are the Lord.
Let the River Flow
Make me a River!
Let the River Flow
Make me a River!”
The thanks we can give back is only pale in what we receive. The joy and love we experience makes our hearts pound with anxious thoughts of doing. Our heart and mind changes, but that is what drives us to do; drives us into action. Our thoughts and words seem to change. The way we look at things is just different and hard to explain and not noticeable to anyone but you. Our conversations with God changes, frequency changes, length changes and nothingness is important. It is not a thought in the morning, but becomes and goes with you throughout the whole day.
Your change is radical, different and internal. It is being hidden from others for now. It is just for you. And then slowly, the thirst becomes stronger while the thirst is being removed. All else is behind you, but with you. Yes, it’s you, but the change that started continues to grow more and more every day. The slow growth still has a thirst that is still not quench. In some cases, and for a period of time, it becomes quiet and dry. Seems lost no matter what you say or how hard you pray. But the change continues, and the trust and faith that was nourished, is needed more to go forward. Finally, the thirst fills and the quite dry is no longer. And the love you knew comes back with overwhelming changes; that now is a love and closeness you have never experienced! A presence around you.
So, what does one do? Yes, continue and let your soul be abandoned to our Lord. Renew that commitment every day. Continue to ask the Lord to “Melt and Mold you”. But also, the simple words need to be said. And repeated as we go forward. The words of “Jesus I love, Jesus I thank you and Jesus I trust in you.”
Time to start a walk with Our Lord. Flow through me.